Saying Goodbye and Tying up Loose Ends


Last night I had my first goodbye with Jess. A bunch of us went to dinner at BW3 and since she won’t be in town this weekend for my going away party, we hugged and wished each other the best in the Bdubs parking lot.  As I was walking to my car, Kevin asked me how it felt and all I said was “Fine.” The realization that I’m not going to see people for a very long amount of time is just now setting it.  I’m scared of saying goodbye, I’m scared I will be left out or even forgotten, and I’m mostly scared of the homesickness that I, without a doubt, will experience. I already went through it once when I moved to Dallas and it was awful.  It took about 3 weeks for it to set in and when it did, I cried every single night for a solid two months. If it hadn’t been for Kevin skyping me almost every night, my homesickness probably would have lasted even longer.  I don’t want to feel that way again. It was one of the worst emotional experiences I’ve ever had to deal with. I know that this isn’t my first realization that I’m leaving nor is it my most emotional. I can’t explain how this one is different but it is affecting me a lot more…maybe it’s due to the fact that I only have 6 days left until departure…

On a brighter note; I am almost fully prepared for departure. I received my flu shot yesterday and packed up everything but my 2nd carry on which is a backpack that will contain my laptop, paperwork, and other electronics. After packing and repacking each bag at least 3 times, I have finally made it so my biggest carry-on is at 45lbs and has a lot of unused space for what I’ve heard is a mountain of various training guides, books, and items that the PC office gives you during training. The only forseeable issue is with my rolling carry-on. It is very densely packed and I hope I can find someone kind enough on the plane to lift it overhead for me.  I tried lifting it overhead myself and it nearly gave me a concussion!

The black one on the left is the carry on of death that almost killed me today. It holds school supplies, GRE books, my jeans, some shirts, straightener, curling iron, and my change of clothes for the international flight along with my PJs. The black and green rolling duffel has my business casual clothing, dresses, and basic t-shirts for the most part and has a nice amount of room left over. The blue and gray one holds all of the heavy stuff such as shoes, more school supplies, and random hygienic products and comes in at around 35lbs. I’ll also have a carry on backpack that will hold my laptop, paperwork, and other random electronics.  I thought that I was all set but now, listing everything that I am bringing, I am worried that I will end up forgetting something that I won’t be able to buy overseas.

Lastly; the weather makes me sad. It has been raining all day and will continue into the night. Danijela and I were supposed to go to the Cubs vs Padres game today but as of now that is postponed and will eventually be cancelled.  I am happy to see the glorious weather that will be waiting for us at our training site in Targoviste! LOOK! It’s actually spring there!!!!


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